1. What When Why How Where Is?

    You know how sometimes you just have to feel what’s right?

    I don’t get that.

    Life for me is a giant question mark.

    Does it exist?

    You can’t just expect a teenager to agree with you, or understand the life-long consequences of the horrible punishment you wish to inflict on them for making mistakes or doing what they believe.

    We really shouldn’t call ourselves a free nation when our incarceration rate is the highest of all industrialized nations in the world and has been since 2002 now in 2013

     
  2. About the Author

    I don’t like to write about my life, or what happened, but I feel like I had a radically different and hellish experience in my early life than most people had and so it is important to get it out for people to think about.

    I used to listen to my parents arguing and screaming at each other at the top of their lungs, keeping me and my brother and sister up or waking us up, almost every night of my early life. They would swear at each other mostly during the arguments, or accuse each other of not wanting to fuck the other anymore or yell about something about money or the kids or you are a fucking liar. I never called it swearing I called it cussing when they said like fuck or shit head or ass hole or piece of shit, I think my mom said peace of mind a lot and I thought it meant piece of mind, pieces of mind, piece of the pie, maybe it did sometimes too, like: I’m going to give you a piece of my mind..

    May dad used to beat up my mom, or attempt to while she fought back every once in a while.

    "Don’t lie about me in front of my children!!!" was a big thing that seemed to be associated with that kind of violence.

    "I’ll fight you tooth and nail", my mom said. I still don’t know where she came from with these expressions she would use when she was really reacting..?

    I remember somebody talking about my how dad punched my mom in the stomach while she was pregnant with my brother or kicked her. Or maybe that was my cousin and her dad while her mom was pregnant with her little sister? They would argue to a whole different tune of fucked up.

    My parents cared so much about us kids. Everything was for us kids. And even though we didn’t have money we ate every day and my mom was proud of that, and when she ever mentions that fact she always seems like she is really amazed it worked out like that.

    I lived off food stamps with my mom for a while, so anybody that’s got a problem with food stamps or welfare can suck my dick, cause if we didn’t have that, I would have been figuring out how to rob you instead of writing this blog.

    We were lucky to have grandparents on my mom’s side that had to help us out full time eventually and let me and my sister and brother stay with them and live with them when things got really fucked up or before and after school.

    Of course, it makes me feel kinda privileged in a messed up way and guilty up that probably the only reason they had money, considering how fucked up everybody was, was because of the systemic segregation that they believed in and promoted.

    They were really into capitalism and always told me to work as hard as I can and don’t care about anybody else because that was the way to achieve success and the best way or maybe the only way the world was bound to work and I was bound to survive and that it was somehow dignifying to obtain and compete and beat out others.

    I remember my aunt crying about how when my grandpa died he was so heart broken when one of his few friends, a mutual friend of him and my grandmas, this holocaust survivor, totally ignored him when he tried to say hi to her after my grandma died. He was a severe racist and she probably knew it and thought he was a creep.

    Although I loved him and really loved being with him for many reasons, my grandpa was pretty creepy in alot of ways. Despite being racist which was a mostly conscious accomplishment of his life, he was severely manic depressive and had trouble controlling his temper. We all just kind of knew not to push any of grandpa’s buttons, and all understood he was a little weird, which was cool and fine in itself and kinda cute in ways like taking care of old people typically is.

    I only saw him flip a couple of times and never all the way. I heard about it when he apparently threw my cousin out on the front lawn flt on her stomach after she refused to wash her hands before dinner. Somebody at my school actually saw it and apparently the school was a little concerned. Like, he couldn’t handle certain things, like movies about war particularly and any swearing on tv for some reason, although he swore alot himself and said bitch and nigger all the time and jesus christ god damn son of a bitches cheap shit female drivers.

    My grandparents used to tell me my dad was a worthless bum.

    They apparently hated him and he knew it and I didn’t really know how it all came about and they knew he beat up my mom and she kept getting back together with him over and over again.

    He was a great father in a lot of ways and really inspirational and a great teacher and he loved his children.

    Does that seem like a strange thing if you were to hear your grandparents saying something like that about your dad or would that seem somehow out of the ordinary to you? Not really to me at that age, but I sometimes wondered what it was like to not have that, and it made me feel a little funny sometimes and pissed and like something was wrong or out of the ordinary when my grandparents were making fun of him.

    My great grandmother made me lock out my best friend when I was little, when me and some other friends came in to get a drink of water. “I don’t want that god damn nigger in my house!” she said to me vividly as she kind of trembled in fear, like how a cat does at some ridiculous harmless shit it is afraid of. “Why?” “Because he’ll steal something”

    I was so mad right then but I got him a glass of water and stood there with him with a few minutes and then I had to go back inside to get everybody and left him out there.

    There are not many things I’ve ever felt so tormented about after growing up. I can’t imagine how he must have felt when that happened, having to stay out there ALONE. He looked a little pissed off at my grandma, but we never really talked about it, like neither of us cared and just figured my grandparents were dicks like that. I think it was mostly confusing for both of us because I didn’t understand what this racist shit my grandparents were saying even meant or why they would think he would want to steal our stuff at that age and he probably didn’t really get what was going on at all because my grandma like ducked me inside the door where he couldn’t hear to tell me not to let him inside.

    I wonder how that guy grew up, I used to move alot and haven’t talked to him since. I bet after he grew up he thought about that weird memory and figured out that he had been a victim of racism and is maybe even pissed or enraged about it, maybe he even thinks I am a racist or that I was intent on the act of victimizing him. Actually I moved away from there not too long after that happened maybe within a year so I didn’t really ever get the opportunity to reflect on that with him or any other friends.

    That’s another thing, I used to move around alot. My dad couldn’t keep a job because he would always get pissed and start fights at work. He would even fist fight at work sometimes, he was so passionate about everything.

    It was really amazing to be around that in a lot of ways, like he was wild and courageous and smart and vocal. I think that was why my mom stayed so attracted to him.

    He went up to these old ladies once randomly in a grocery store talking about shark attacks and said how there was a greater probability that you would die by getting stung by a bee than getting attacked by a shark.

    He was a lifestyle surfer and the shark conversation definitely struck a chord with him.

    That was when him and my mom were separated for the last time and he lived in Cocoa beach, I think. I was hanging out with him and checking out his humble digs in like this shack thing he had behind some older Ronald Reagan looking dude in the Co. beach suburb.

    He had an orange tree in his back yard and that was the first time I ever saw that in my whole life of being down in Florida. I’m pretty sure I remember we were not allowed to pick them.

    He shot himself in the head, actually in his neck, in that house, probably in his bedroom. I don’t understand how he got his neck or what he was doing with the gun there, like, why he would think of the neck and not the head..? How the fuck was he holding his gun? There were two bullet wounds below his jaw on the side of his neck, there was tape on them and, like, painted over with bluish rosy tan pale skin colored paint at the funeral. The attempted fakeness looked mostly disgusting.

    I knew everything that had happened already from hearing him over the phone. “Do you love him!?!?” “Yes!”  pew “Oh my god Matthew!! Oh my god Matthew no …”

    I could imagine what happened and had a picture in my mind of what he looked like that was really different from what he actually looked like after he died and the actual position of the wounds really threw me off.

    I always wondered what that was like for my sister, when it actually happened, because she was literally sleeping next to my mother that night or trying to lay down with her and then definitely awake holding on to her and hearing everything as it happened, I actually haven’t thought about the fact that she was right there for a long time till it just came to me now, it made me really emotional to try to remember what she said, I think she even called out to him like “Daddy no” a few times right before he shot himself, or as he shot himself. I can’t believe how anybody could have been subjected to an experience like that, it makes me really question as I am writing about it now whether I should have gotten up and implored him to stop too or if I even was awake enough to, I remember thinking like it was just another fucked up night he was threatening something drastic and severe. I’ve never questioned that before. I know she had definitely said “Daddy no” a few of the worst really drastic times when violent episodes happened between our parents, it was definitely something she would have said in that situation. I’m somewhat ashamed that I can’t remember that now even though I definitely used to be able to remember what happened that night.

    I remember getting up in the morning and high fiving my brother about getting three days off from school.

    I felt really guilty about that around the time I got out of college and this girl I knew real well and kind of looked up to told me I would never fall in love, and I believed that she knew what she was saying and mind fucked myself for a while.

    I know I was trying to keep my brother from feeling bad, I don’t remember if he was awake or asleep during the whole thing, but I also remember being sincerely relieved about not going to school and not wanting to bother with the whole situation and just saying fuck it and be over with it and just peacefully sit and play video games with my brother.

     
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    Wow, I wonder if they actually figured out the application of this geometry to weight distribution problems and planned out their construction this way before they started building this one?
Apparently there were weight distribution problems in earlier pyramids that resulted in structural faults, that had to be corrected by changing the construction part way through completion.
I gotta learn to read the hieroglyphs.Check out this awesome documentary:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5l-HZLRxHQ 

    Wow, I wonder if they actually figured out the application of this geometry to weight distribution problems and planned out their construction this way before they started building this one?

    Apparently there were weight distribution problems in earlier pyramids that resulted in structural faults, that had to be corrected by changing the construction part way through completion.

    I gotta learn to read the hieroglyphs.

    Check out this awesome documentary:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5l-HZLRxHQ 

    (Source: theawakenedstate)

     
  4. Anally Ravaged Bankers in Jail, the Libor Scandal, Causes of Prison Aggression Concerning Propertarianism, and Applications of Anarchism

    I was told by word of mouth today at work of a conspiracy theory about the connection of some participants in the Libor scandal to the school shootings that occurred in Massachusetts and in Sandy Hook.

    Supposedly the shooters or someone killed in the shootings were the sons of a couple of people who were related to the scandal.

    One of these fathers was relieved from duty to testify in court because he was so grieved by the involvement of his son in the shooting. I think that was the Sandy Hook shooting. This basically prevented the court from making that father testify and expose names of some of the people involved in the scandal. The other father had a similar situation in which the grievance got him out of something.

    I thought, well I could kinda see that, I mean the banker capitalists involved in this scandal have a lot to fear from the prison systems. They would be brutalized and anally ravaged by all the people who they pissed off by being greedy stingy propertarian anti-social fucks. 

    These are the people who persist on the laws and massive system of violent enforcement that allows them protection of property and their massive accumulation of property, have created the prison situation into which they might be driven.

    Their slender bodies and shitty background would render them extremely vulnerable in a place where many people have been forced into or believe in or are provoked to living a life of violence.

    It is the accumulation of property and protection thereof which has largely instigated and expanded such systems of fostered and concentrated violence. Without this motive, it is actually pretty hard to determine whether they are necessary to exist at all.

    The above anecdote is interesting because it is a case that accentuates the dynamic between property motivation, the drive to accumulate and keep, and the drive to avoid the punishment and exclusion that are the tools used in the protection of that same property.

    The drive to accumulate with knowledge that the accumulation will be protected can cause a person to subvert society to accumulate more than what the society perceives that it can safely sustain, which is many times more than it can actually sustain.

    This mechanism of subversion, distinct from the sole drive to accumulate, exacerbates the occurrence of violence within the society and the necessity of violent and exclusive systems of property protection.

    Why does propertarianism even exist?

    The social contract has manifested itself in many forms and arrangements over the course of human history. One form of social contract that has been perceived to be advantageous is the contract of property ownership between groups.

    Property can be shared among groups or owned by a single group, but it is the property ownership that is respected and enforced with authority. The authority of one group in a breach of the property ownership contract can be held over many aspects of another group’s livelihood, including the authority to physically punish or deprive livelihood or terminate life. The deprivation of livelihood defined in property ownership contracts can focus on the effects of the property itself, like as in starvation when food is the property transferred from one group to another or destroyed, or could be based on some rational or cultural principal. By the way, when I say groups I am referring to any arrangement of societal participants, down to a single person or part of something. A group can consist of one person. A group may be considered a group or a certain group even though it has not agreed to participate as such.

    The social contract. 

    Social contracts can be struck by any societal groupings between each other. Many times these agreements will authority the transfer of authority over some aspects of life from one group to another under defined circumstances. This can include authorization of violence of members of one group over the other.

    Social contracts in practice are struck as new information about the relationship between the social groups is discovered. When enough information becomes available about the perceived importance of regulation between groups to some or all members, some or all members of the groups can be stimulated into action which results in the formation of a contract.

    Contracts can be terminated, by one or the other group. Contracts can be terminated by either group. When enough information about the perceived importance of terminating a contract has been accumulated, some or all members of the groups can be stimulated into action which results in the termination of a contract. 

    Contracts such as adherence to a group can be considered. One of these contracts may be impacted very strongly by the effects of other contracts, namely because adherence to a group involves adhering to the social contracts that group has become engaged in. Adherence itself may be loosely defined and have complex implications in the meaning of adherence to different members across the group or transcend temporally.

    The important thing to note about the social contract as it is being defined here is that it is something that exists even though it may not be agreed to be referred to as such, and is thus inescapable.

    The ability to break these social contracts in a coordinated way as to avoid violence from being part or the coordination and to avoid violence when a previously upheld contract starts to result in violence happening, or other undesirable things, can be beneficial to society overall.

    Maybe as more information is gained as to the effect and necessity of violence or other forms of forcible deprivation we may decide to terminate contracts involving property ownership and maybe create more flexible, breakable contracts that do not involve property ownership.

    What kinds of motivations are there to accumulate if you can’t ever guarantee that your accumulation will be protected for yourself or your group?

    Would this result in more or less violence or more or less strict contracts?

     
  5. Perpetual Revolution - Free Market Exchange and Advertising

    When we see advertising, particularly supply side or supply influenced advertising, we are seeing essential distortion of the free market.

    Most advertising techniques we know of are actually aimed at this goal, of distorting the FREE MARKET to gain an advantage and ultimately some extent of control over other FREE MARKET participants.

    Hey what happens if somebody drops a bomb in this fucking cage? We’re all gonna get trapped trying to get out!

     ~                  

    Of course, advertising can be conducted in a way that provides concise information about the makeup and objective value of the product, but most of the advertising we see masks or distorts the real properties of the products it represents.

    Distortion may still happen even if it is not attempted, or consciously understood or rationalized as such or if it is even actually beneficial to the supplier.

    On a large scale, this may be determined to be a serious distorting force within the free market. The less consumers know about what they are consuming, you’d think the less optimal decisions they’d be capable of making about their market interactions, namely purchases and investments.

    What are the effects of mainstream confusion within a large society, or a dangerously large society?

    What kinds of tools or substantive authority or ability do consumers have to counter the attempts at information hiding now?

    What I’d like to know more about is how people traded in ancient times. What kinds of techniques were created and implemented during trade to ensure both sides had the information they felt they needed to make the optimal trade.

    At how many different levels did this happen? I’m sure people who were heavily invested in any form of trade as some sort of career or obligatory job must have prepared and developed techniques to counter attempts at information hiding by the other side. Did the end consumer always get deceived about the products’ value and composition or were there attempts made to hide the true character of products in order to make the trade happen?

    Smiley360.com will never censor your speech and we want you to know that we value any feedback you have about any product. 

    Smiley360.com will never refuse or hide any offer from you based on any speech you have previously made about anything. 

     
  6. A Recipe For Socialism

    High Ecological Standards

     - Set goals for ecological preservation

     - Put people to work regularly auditing industry and life support systems for adherence to ecological standards

     - Increase funding to ecological improvement programs as needed

     - Use standards as a labor motivator. High standards makes life difficult to be lax and wasteful.

    Allow Entrepreneurship

     - Provide jobs instead of forcing jobs, use soft standards for ecological improvement. If labor force is not meeting ecological standards, increase rewards for effort instead of sanctioning.

     - Allow people with ideas to get funding to make ideas happen

     - Requires speculators and investment sciences to develop, and should rely heavily on automated expert systems to perform speculation and evaluate risks and benefits.

     - Use rating system to rate usefulness of products, instead of wealth exchange.

     - Social web and encyclopedia can facilitate qualitative review of innovations.

     - Free information, no patenting. This paired with archive of qualitative information about innovations allows people to pick up ideas long into the future if innovations weren’t as popular or practical when originally introduced.

    Gamify Wealth Attainment to Reward Achievement

     - Collectively hoard objects of wealth (such as mansions, vacations, etc) to provide incentives for labor. These things already exist, we could destroy them, or maybe utilize them as prizes for people who attain goals. The prizes can thus be shared temporarily and reused for many achievers. This suggestion sounds kind of douchey to me, but looking at the way people are motivated by contests, as corny and ridiculous as it seems, it can be extremely useful in motivation, we should all realize this and utilize the principle within a constructive democratic equalized context or else it will be used in less ethical schemes. When one analyzes the nature of contests, they reward incentive and are yet equitable, in that there is typically a randomized aspect to the assignment of awards, in the cases when there are many who have qualified for the award under the rules of the contest.

     - Use democratic rating system to evaluate achievement and choose winners.

     - Work auditors can form field-specific panels to help determine what constitutes “good” work in their particular fields. These decisions would need to be open to public scrutiny and democratic revision.

     - The arguments for the use of any wealth inequality as motivators are controversial in discussions about socialism and socialist arrangements. I agree, this is a tough call, maybe all objects of inequality should be abolished instead of introducing any wealth inequality even if temporary in nature. Research and discussion is needed around this subject and possible implementations concerning motivators.

    Distribute Work Load So That It Is Easily Digestible

     - Use technology and networks to break up complex problems into smaller problems and let people pic up the small problems as they are motivated to. Reassemble the work into a finished product. Do this in as many work systems as possible.

     - Reduce work load so that it is easy to sustain and minimizes personal aggravation. Try to automate work as much as possible. We have the technology to do this now.

     - Decentralization of work and infrastructure provides a defense against concentrated attacks. i.e. You won’t be able to blow up one building and take out an entire work force, because that work force will be distributed geographically and  each point of labor will be autonomous.

     - Try to utilize network systems as much as possible to reduce transportation costs and pollutions, and  provide incentive for technological development. People should work from home or localized base stations whenever possible to avoid long commutes.

    Provide Robust Social Services

     - Provide proactive mental health programs, that are active in all social systems, such as schools, work places, hospitals, etc.

     - Mental health programs are proactive in that they operate with regular group therapy sessions driven by the group, and therapists can request group members to take additional therapy, although they cannot force therapy upon any individual.

     - Provide physical health programs that operate on preventive measures that are judged to be helpful while maintaining a regulated ecological footprint.

     - Emergency or restorative health assistance will be guaranteed regardless of ecological impact.

     - Reward experts and innovators in these fields to provide incentive.

     - The outreach policies of these systems must be controlled democratically, and not by beaurocracy, and must never push any subjective agenda. The moment a policy can be identified as pushing a subjective agenda, it must be discontinued. This can include when any principle a policy operates on is dis-proven in the field using scientific methodology.

    Identify Ecological Limitations

     - Identify absolute societal limits in regards to ecological sustainment, such as population size

     - Keep track of these priorities in a universal fashion

     - Institute life effecting/culture diminishing regulations only through large scale democratic consensus, such as birth control, or energy restrictions on things like air conditioning, heat/hot water, etc. Any hard regulations must be temporary and recallable.

    Reject Authority

     - Never use destructive or restrictive methods of authority such as imprisonment or censorship, except in a very limited number of severe cases, like prevention of murder, theft, violence, or sexual abuse.

     - Authoritative systems are always open to investigation by the public and must publicly provide all information pertaining to the structure and operations of these systems.

     - Never penalize laborers for failure to meet societal goals. We are better off letting the entire system collapse than resorting to authoritative measures that are designed to preserve one system of societal organization over others.

    Take Regular Consensus and Prevent Leadership

     - Consensus is an essential step in forming community, forming comradery and evaluating the needs and desires or aggravations of the general public. In addition to providing a true system of democracy that also considers the minority, it allows communities to participate in discussion that is not controlled or manipulated hierarchically (which is the problem with our current system of leadership and media manipulation due to centralized wealth)

     - Consensus is participatory, not mandatory in all communities.

     - Separate consensus communities can be formed but their decisions must be recorded and made publicly available along with the number of participants present for each decision and a log of the discussions that lead up to the decision. This information should be tracked using an open and universal tracking system that uses time/geo-dependance to evaluate the integrity of the information recorded (i.e if it takes too long for information to be input into the system after a decision is made, or if information is coming from unlikely geographic locations, it is likely to be forgery. Using this mechanism instead of identity to verify integrity preserves anonymity of participants).  The consensus of many enough other groups can prompt investigation into decisions and the identities of their participants, to prevent relatively small self interest groups from undermining the democratic value of the system of federated consensus.

     - Consensus systems should include automated and networked systems that protect anonymity within the consensus group and break down geographical boundaries.

     - Participation in consensus cannot be denied, although abuse should be identified and there should be a democratic system of temporary suspension from group activity. The suspension functionality should be robust enough to prevent abuse that freezes up consensus in the case of an attack on the consensus process itself (…maybe, this is a tough problem to solve. Has it been solved yet? I don’t know, please provide feedback…)

    Adhere to an Amendable Constitution

     - Constitutions are important because they give universal rule sets and recommendations for people to fall back on in case they start to loose direction or forget the reasons why they are doing something in the first place.

     - Amendment allows the constitution to evolve with its environment and as flaws are discovered.

     
  7. Open Lobby - A Corruption Free Lobbying System

    Wiki-based lobbying.

    Any lobbying communications to politicians get placed on the politicians wiki.

    Lobbys are open to comments, notation, scrutiny and revision.

    Gifts to politicians are prohibited.

    All the information they need to make decisions can be hosted on the web, and made open to the public.

    Tactical or brainstorming discussion between politician and lobbyist also made open. 

    Lobbyist must publicly disclose ties to employer if they are being employed to lobby.

    To enforce the disclosure, any author of information on a wiki can be investigated. Formal investigations may be called by the request of a large enough portion of the public.

     
  8. Other Peoples’ Children.

    They’re our responsibility too

     
  9. Property Too Simplistic

    Consider, for example, the complex social relationships that are established during a session of shopping.

    The consumer can’t simply place markings on product or packaging, say like when information becomes available about the makeup of the product or its history, and so on, because the product is considered property of the provider, like the grocery store, or manufacturer, or whatever deals the Property Owners worked out with each other.

    We can see that example behavior as is described above could be of immense social value, and the simplification of the social interaction due to adherence to the rules of the concept of property ownership, and subsequently the rules of shopping become detrimental to the pursuit of the optimal product consumption or attainment scheme.

    Of course, the over-simplification due to the prevalence of the concept of property ownership gets in the way again when we consider the limitations that would be necessary to allow people to mark products with useful, and not socially destructive markings. An example of something that is socially destructive if one were to simply invert the concept of property ownership would be the ability for a competitor of a product provider to place false information and propaganda, or destructively cover up any useful information on the product or its packaging.

    The ability to form complex schemes of social interaction that can allow the useful and prevent the destructive without causing collateral damage to other social systems is severely limited when the problems at hand are constrained to narrow rules.

    The concept of property is thus flawed as it is antiquated and this as well as other over-simplistic or historical social constraints must be replaced by flexibility of concept and openness to problems as they comes as well as unlimited imagination in solutions to working with problems.

     
  10. Programming Human Networks

    It is possible to view human networks, and societal groupings of humans, as a computing machine, and thus, to develop a system of programming that machine, defining rules that have to do with networks of semi-autonomous components (which in this case would be humans themselves and their machines) and identifying prevalent designs that are known to have certain effects.

    In computer science, we can break down designs of certain parts or aspects of a program into cataloged patterns, so that we can quickly assemble programs by using patterns in conjunction with each other, and be able to ascertain the behavior and effects of the program well at design time.

    In computers today we typically use centralized processing, like in the case of a home computer, a CPU. In actuality, nowadays we use multiple CPUs like a standard CPU paired with a Graphics Processing Unit, and multiprocessors within those CPUs. We have been able to identify limitations and develop programs for those setups by studying the way they fundamentally work.

    Of course, CPUs behavior is quite predictable, because we made them that way to make the job of figuring out how to develop for them easy.

    However, networks of autonomous and semi-predictable entities can also be viewed and studied in the same way we can view and study digital computer CPUs, even though they may lack some of the predictability of computer CPUs.

    Studies may lead to discoveries like certain limitations in our ability to develop programs in which we can predict all results of “processing” within the autonomous network. Like black holes around certain parts of behavior we may see that there are certain aspects of the system which we can’t control, and thus implement measures to allow us to efficiently handle the possible outcomes at those points. The black holes may even be huge, taking up most of our ability to process predictably within the network, but we may find regions of behavior that actually are predictable.

    Take over Take over Take over Take over the government.